Jaci Dawn

I forgot that lesson earlier tonight as I struggled with some mini sketches of Arabians. I got too concerned with being perfect that I forgot they were just practice sketches and not meant to be perfect. They’re meant to be sloppy, hasty, and just a tad nice. Anyway, I tossed them aside and pursued other interests for a couple of hours before revisiting them.

Hah! A little ink, some scribbles, and – TaDa! rough sketches. And I enjoyed the process. I remembered.

Just little doodles of horses at the Arabian Horse Rescue & Education. I need better photographs to work from. I could try sketching onsite, but I dislike people peering over my shoulder, so photography is the next best way for me to go. I only used my cell phone the last time I was out there. I shall take the big DSLR and extra lens on Thursday when I deliver my first commission.

I still have a bit of the Imposter Syndrome going on (that I’m not good enough or what the client thinks I am). I have room to grow. A lot of room. I need to be willing to stumble a little. I also need to remember to Enjoy The Journey. So much of my joy was stolen in December and it is a fight daily to keep myself on an even keel.

I will eventually add a page to my website for art (TwoCrowFeatherWoman.com) titled “Arabian Horse Rescue and Education”. This is where I will blog about the journey (in between genealogy and gardening and healing my heart). For now, just look at my doodles and know I was practicing. Nowhere close to perfect and they shouldn’t be. They’re part of the journey, and the part that should be enjoyed.